Blessed to be Broken

God's not finished with me yet!

God’s Out To Get Me

This is a season of new beginnings for me. Not gonna lie, some days it’s been rough. There’s been A LOT of tears shed and A LOT of wrestling with my Heavenly Father.

I’ve learned the best question in these time is not, “Why God”? For me, it’s “What are you up to God?” or “What are you trying to teach me?” or more to the heart of it, “What are you trying to heal”?

Two of my go to verses for times when I’m not sure what’s really happening around me are:

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.

Proverbs 3:5-6 (NIV)


“For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,” declares the Lord. “As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.”

Isaiah 55:8-9 (NIV)

These two verses take the pressure off myself to figure out all the things ruminating in my head and places my trust in God.

So, it more looks like, “God, I don’t know what you’re up to, but I trust you to lead me through.”

That’s on my good days. But what happens on my not so good days? To let you know that, I’m going to give you an overall glimpse of my life.

  • Moved to a new home in a new area unfamiliar to me
  • Had a tree fall close to the house. Like, blocking my door close
  • Felt the call to change churches
  • Felt the call to change hair stylists
  • My beautiful and amazing Gabby gurl passed over the rainbow bridge – This still wrecks me
  • Got verbally attacked by someone I thought was a “friend”
  • Felt the call to quit my job
  • First time ever living alone

Like I said, this is just a glimpse into my life and this may not seem like much to you but this isn’t your journey. It’s mine. I’m not feeling all, “woe is me”, I’m feeling separated. Or as I’ve been reminded “set apart.”

On my not so good days, my thoughts take a different turn and can be summed up in one sentence, “God’s out to get me”!

From that one statement, I easily let the old lies start to play out in my head.

  • God’s mad at me
  • I’ve done something really wrong and He’s turned His back on me
  • I deserve all the bad things
  • I don’t blame you God for hating me, I pretty much hate myself
  • It’s no wonder you left me all alone

What are those? Lies, lies and more lies, They are old thought patterns that lead to self-pity, self-destruction, and a life based on performance instead of just being. Trying to prove we’re worthy of anything God does in our lives always leads to misconceptions of who He is.

Is it any wonder the first message at my new church was based on the book by Pastor Craig Groeschel, “Winning the War in your Mind”?

There was a card in the pocket of the seat in front of me. These are the questions that were on it:

  1. What lie are you believing?
  2. What Scripture will you use to tear it down?
  3. Where & When will you do battle?

Let me show you my answers:

  1. God’s out to get me.
  2. “We destroy arguments and every lofty opinion raised against the knowledge of God, and take every thought captive to obey Christ,2 Corinthians 10:5 (ESV) and “…I have loved you with an everlasting love;…” – Jeremiah 31:3 and “Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above,…” – James 1:17 (ESV)
  3. Everywhere “we” go. Write these scriptures on my heart, on sticky notes, anywhere I can see them to remind me of the goodness of God and how much He loves me. Spend time getting to know the heart of my Father every day by being in His Word.

Knowing God’s truth is fundamental to my well-being. It’s so easy to spiral down into the lies the enemy would love for us to believe. Living a “less than” life is Satan’s goal. That doesn’t even sound anything close to the life God wants us to live.

This is why it’s imperative to “take EVERY thought captive”. Not some thoughts, EVERY. The lies that we set in place and believe in our lives can become lofty opinions that come against God. Yikes! I don’t know about you, but I’ve believed far too many lies about myself and I’m over it.

2022 may not have started out like I planned, but the new season God is walking me through has only just begun. If you’re like me, the song by the Carpenters just started playing in your head. You’re welcome! In order to walk with Him, I need to place my trust in Him and lay my understanding down.

If you’re in a season of new beginnings, take heart friend, God’s up to something good. One last thing I did with the lie that God was out to get me, was to flip the script. He is out to get me, but in the best possible way. After all, He’s the good Shepherd and He left the 99 to come get me. He’s out to get you too! In the best possible way.

Have an amazing day!


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