Blessed to be Broken

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Strength

on March 5, 2022

When the show Grey’s Anatomy aired in 2005, I was hooked from the first episode. I love catching the re-runs when it’s airing on tv. The other day I caught the episode where Derek proposed to Meredith in an elevator. The doors opened and there stood Derek in the middle of the elevator he had plastered with x-rays and medical charts and what not. He started explaining what each one meant. They all corresponded to moments in their lives related to the work they did together. It was perfect for them and it made my heart smile. He took such care in the way he wanted to propose to her. But, it’s tv, life isn’t always so charismatic.

Maybe you’ve never watched the show. That’s ok. I believe we can all relate to what Derek said to her. Yes, I’m that person who pauses a show and writes down word for word what a character is saying. Especially when those words reach into to my soul and speak to me. So, here we go. Derek said very tenderly to Meredith:

“If there’s a crisis, you don’t freeze; you move forward. You get the rest of us to move forward because you’ve seen worse and you know we’ll survive it too. You say you’re all dark and twisty. It’s not a flaw, it’s a strength, it makes you who you are.”

I love how he reminded her what she thought was weakness, what actually her strength. Not because of what she went through, but that she had the courage and strength to keep moving forward despite what she’d witnessed.

We all have dark and twisty parts. Parts we wish weren’t part of our stories. Some we caused ourselves and some were heaped upon us by others. Stuffing these parts down and trying to ignore their existence within us, causes damage to who we are.

I once thought the worst thing I saw as a child was my Father holding a rifle and aiming it at my mother who sat in chair, helpless. But what happened next was just as traumatizing. I watched the police club the man who fought against them as they put him in the police car. In that moment as I stared out through the window watching this play out before me, I cried for the man who just held a gun to my mother. I screamed out, “no, don’t hurt him”. How is that even possible?

I only watched this play out, but those things actually happened to them. Unfortunately, the trauma from those things affected us all. The things that happened inside me that day might be different, but they are no less emotionally disturbing. Trauma should never be reduced to a competition.

Later in the same episode as it was wrapping up, the character who plays Alex gave this narrative:

“Trauma always leaves a scar. It follows us home. It changes our lives. Trauma messes everybody up”.

I don’t know what dark and twisty things you see as flaws in yourself. But, if anyone tried to diminish what happened to you, I’m so sorry and I wish I could take the pain away. May I very gently remind you, you’re still here and those things you may be holding onto with shame, or guilt, or unworthiness are not what define you. They are real, and they deserve the grief and the anger and deep sorrow you need to let out. But, they don’t deserve your life. You can move forward. You can still make a difference!

If you let Him, God will use all of that mess. There’s someone out there that needs to know, that because you’ve “seen worse”, they too can survive. My friends that takes more courage and strength than you know.

On my bedroom wall is a chalkboard with this quote I wrote on it:

“She knew that she was formed by God’s hands, dreamed up in His heart and placed in this world for His purpose.”

Author unknown

It’s not the best picture, but this is what I look at first thing in the morning. A bold reminder that whatever’s happened in my life, God’s got a purpose for me each and every day.

The same goes for you. God loves you. God knows what you’ve been through and there’s nothing you’ve done that’s surprised Him or caught Him off-guard. Take those dark and twisty places and give them to Him and watch what He does with them.

But, that’s the thing. You have to do your part. God’s always ready to take what you think is a weakness and turn it into a strength. What Satan meant for your harm, God will use for good! Don’t take my word for it. I’m not the authority. Instead let’s stand on these powerful truths:

“Each time he said, “My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.” So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me.”

2 Corinthians 12:9 (NLT)

“You intended to harm me, but God intended it all for good. He brought me to this position so I could save the lives of many people.

Genesis 50:20 (NLT)

Don’t miss that little word “all” in that last verse. When God says, “all,” He means ALL. He wastes nothing! So, take heart my friends, God is moving and He wants to use your dark and twisty flaws for His glory. If so, then get ready for your weaknesses to become your strength!


4 responses to “Strength

  1. Christina Bishop says:

    Definitely keep writing, my friend! This is beautiful. Spoke to my heart on so many levels! Thank you! ❤

  2. Patty Pierce says:

    Gulp. Your childhood memory reads like a movie script. I didn’t know this one thru the end. How can you yell don’t hurt him? Because of the love in your heart. God knew. Wow, God knew and wasn’t surprised. Your passion for Him surpasses your writing. That’s one of my take aways. Another is, thru my heart crying, not my eyes as I’m still behind a bit of wall & hard hearted, is the word all. You better pray about that word being a blog. All? I’ve always skipped over all in my reading of Roman’s 8:28. All the war? All the bloodshed? All the molesting? All the bad and poor decisions? All the sin? All the dark and twisty texts to you from me? I’m blown away reading this! Why? Why do I think my God isn’t able to use all?! I’ve never seen Grey’s Anatomy. I appreciate your music and movie and TV references. I’m always thinking there for the unbeliever reading your blog. Ha. They’re ALL for me… P.S. when should we do our podcast together? I feel another pull to come to you…love you P.P.S. my sharing dark feelings in texts will be my strength???? You crack me up w laughter and truth…

    On Sat, Mar 5, 2022, 6:56 AM Blessed to be Broken wrote:

    > Trish Cordell posted: ” When the show Grey’s Anatomy aired in 2005, I was > hooked from the first episode. I love catching the re-runs when it’s airing > on tv. The other day I caught the episode where Derek proposed to Meredith > in an elevator. The doors opened and there stood Dere” >

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