Blessed to be Broken

God's not finished with me yet!

I Looked For You

on June 1, 2015

As a child, I looked for you in my parents. I looked for you in the fairy tales I read, in birthday parties, presents, mystical characters and dolls.

As a teenager, I looked for you in my activities, my crushes, and still, my parents. I looked for you in me.  I looked for you in books, bars, roller skating rinks, the back seats of cars, at parties, football games, baseball games, swimming pools, amusement parks and fairs.

As an adult, I looked for you in my job, my marriages, my friends, my stuff, my money, astrological signs, and the one parent I had left.  I looked for you in multiple affairs, my abilities, and my body.

As a mom I got a glimpse of you for the first time.  So then I looked for you in my son.

When I couldn’t handle it anymore, I looked for you in alcohol.

But, it wasn’t until I gave up looking for you, that you found me.

You found me crumpled up on the floor buried by everything this world had to offer.  My pit was dark, lonely, with absolutely no light. For me, there was only one way out…to snuff this empty, hollow, life.

Ahhh, but this pit was no match for you.  As you lay there with me at my bottom, you grabbed my hand and protected me as you went ahead mightily and without fear or condemnation pushed through lust, greed, pride, self-righteousness, envy, hate, shame, guilt, addiction, and deceitful desires.  You annihilated each sin with the only thing that conquers them all…love.

When we reached the top, you ever so gently, lifted me up out of the pit.  You set me back down, and started writing your story on my stony heart.  You sang me to sleep, you gave me hope, you shed your blood and you died for me. You were tortured, brutalized, spat upon and ridiculed.  You were crucified to fulfill a predestined plan to save me from my selfishness, because you loved me then and despite myself, you love me now.

You are Redeemer to the fallen, weak, misunderstood, sick, lost, and hurting. You are Lord of all creation. You are God of wonders that cannot be measured or denied.  You are light and everything that is good and true and perfect.  You are without blame, without sin, and without a doubt, the risen Savior sent to save us all.

You pursued me, You found me, and You never gave up on me.  You overcame the beasts that sought my destruction.  You waited with unending patience and when I was ready, You wrapped me up, covered me in love and called me Yours.  Never did I imagine a love like Yours! Indeed, nothing can compare.

Day by day, step by step, eyes focused on You, I dare to imagine the life You planned for me.  Day by day, step by step, eyes focused on You, I still mess up.  And day by day, step by step, eyes focused on You, I learn more and more, it’s not about me and what I’ve done or will do, but it’s all about You and what You’ve done and what You’re going to do.

Love is looking for you as well.  He’s waiting, He’s with you, right where you are, no matter what you’re caught up in. Nothing, yes, no thing in your life will stop God from reaching you.  That’s the thing about His Love, it never gives up, it never runs dry and it never leaves you.

Note:  The love story between you and Jesus will most certainly be as unique and wonderful as He made you.  Jesus died for each and every one of us. He was crucified for our transgressions and rose from the dead just as it was prophesied.  He is not just my personal Lord and Savior, He’s yours as well.

“For God so loved the world, He sent His one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.”  John 3:16

One response to “I Looked For You

  1. Absolutely BEAUTIFUL!!!!!

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