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#Truth~~Can you handle it

on February 13, 2014

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The truth is I am in love with my Jesus.  The truth is most days I want…no…scratch that…I need to wallow in all the Glory that is Him.  But some days, I just don’t get it.  I don’t see the purpose and I don’t understand why I even bother.  I have soooo much to be thankful for and yet there I go throwing myself a pity party.  And some days, I invite others over for my party and we fill up our whine glasses and cheer to complaining!!  The truth is there are days I just wanna throw in the towel and say, it’s just not worth it.  I’m done.

I had to seriously look inside and see what it was that still brought me to these parties.  They weren’t fun.  They weren’t uplifting. They most certainly weren’t encouraging.  They were just the opposite of anything celebratory.  There were no balloons, no streamers, no party hats, and no cake. There was no rejoicing in the day the Lord gave me, because I could have cared less about the day the Lord gave me.  I questioned “why” He even gave it to me since I was so intent on not seizing the day….I instead seized the mood and chased after it like a child running down the ice cream truck.  I took my focus off God, and I put it all on me.  I stopped thanking and I started self-absorbing faster than a Bounty “quicker picker upper” paper towel.  

And there it was…I was tired of having faith.  I was tired of trusting and I was tired that He was not doing things in my way and in my time.  It wasn’t fair that I wasn’t where I thought I would be at 50 years old.  It wasn’t fair that my position at work got cut and my plans for when I wanted to retire didn’t pan out.  It wasn’t fair that I was a single mom even though it was my own selfishness that brought that to pass.  It wasn’t fair that my girlfriends were scattered all over the world instead of close by.  It wasn’t fair……

I started looking at all the things I didn’t have instead of being thankful for all that I do have. How easy is that to do?  And sometimes when I did have all that I thought that I wanted, I wanted more and looked over in that proverbial neighbor’s yard and started comparing and wanting and that too wasn’t fair. I wanted what I thought they had.   

When I take my eyes, my focus off God and focus on me, the truth gets blurred; like trying to look at your own nose, blurred. It becomes FEAR…False Evidence Appearing Real. It becomes dispassionate and it becomes destructive. It becomes the life our Savior is desperately trying to keep me from, and yet, I still find myself in that place.  But God, will not leave me there. He calls out and I look up and cry Jesus, take this from me.  And He says, I’m trying but you won’t let me.  Ouch!!  It’s in that moment, I realize my faith, my trust is not in the Vine.  I have not given Him my whole heart.  I’ve only given Him pieces. He offered His life, so why can’t…why won’t I offer Him my whole heart?  

The truth is, I’m afraid to give Him my whole heart. There, I said it.  I said it out loud and there’s no hiding from it any more. The truth is I’m afraid I won’t do what He might ask. Notice I didn’t say I’m afraid I can’t do what He might ask.  Because I know that “whatever” He asks of me, He will provide all that I would need to accomplish “it.”  But, it’s the “whatever” He might ask, it’s the “it” of the unknown that stops me. 

It’s time to fully embrace the heart truth that Jesus spoke to the Samaritan woman at the well…”Jesus answered, “Everyone who drinks this water will be thirsty again, but whoever drinks the water I give them will never thirst. Indeed, the water I give them will become in them a spring of water welling up to eternal life.””~~ John 4:13-14 (NIV) “This water” Jesus offers is the absolute truth, the life and the way!!  And while I’m on my journey to give Him my whole heart, the awesome thing is, He’s still meeting me right where I am, showing me the way. 

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This is the 4th week of our On-line Bible Study over on the Proverbs 31 site, Made to Crave by Lysa TerKeurst.  Our word for the week is #Truth and one of the topics for our blog hop is “#Truth– What truth are living by? Whose truth are you believing?”  It actually comes down to 1 truth—it’s either God’s truth or the enemy’s lies. 

Whose truth will you believe?

 


14 responses to “#Truth~~Can you handle it

  1. Dianna says:

    #TRUTH is…you done it again…making me think on my brain’s day off…but how true is this…our eyes focus on us… and our mind…and our heart follows…the Voice of Truth…tells me who I am and Whose I am…yep…I am a Daughter of the Most High…and I am ready to walk into my inheritance…love you sister ❤

  2. Lee Kathleen says:

    You voiced what I am reluctant to admit…” I am afraid to give Him my whole heart….afraid I won’t do what He might ask…” I give my heart to Jesus and then five minutes later I feel like I already have failed Him. Good thing that His mercies are new every morning and that His faithfulness is great. God is very patient, loving, and forgiving. Focusing on God and His truth keeps me on track:) Thank you for encouraging me today:)

    • Amen Lee Kathleen!! His is so faithful, loving and patient!! That alone makes my heart smile and yes, thank you Lord that your mercies are new every morning!! Thanks for stopping by, I really appreciate it 🙂 Blessings to you!!

  3. Amen Trish! God is either everything or his nothing. Thank you so much for sharing what is on your heart today.
    Nancy Silvers (FB Small Group Leader #34/Prayer Warrior Team)

  4. Missy says:

    Taking my focus off of God and putting it all on myself never serves me well, either, friend. Love that you recognize God’s Truth of his GREAT LOVE for you! And I so love how you share that here. Celebrating that He is ALL right along with you! ❤

  5. Tara says:

    Thank you for sharing your heart again Trish 🙂 I too can relate to what you’re saying! You’ve once again challenged me and I love that! ❤

  6. Miriam Lind says:

    “And some days, I invite others over for my party and we fill up our whine glasses and cheer to complaining!!” – BEEN THERE! What a great post! Thanks for voicing these issues so clearly (and bravely). We fail…but we must get back up again 🙂 And our GREAT GOD even helps in dusting us off 😉 Have a great week ~ Miriam of http://cravingsconfidential.blogspot.com

  7. Patty Pierce says:

    Arugh! Pout. Stomp. Sigh. Breathe. Be still. Know He is God. Read your post again. Yep. God is speaking to me. It’s still stinging. And I’m not alone. Amen. Ok, so a bit of a dramatic response. Yet, it’s so true. I had that pity party all day today & not a one friend or even husband would join me. Burn. (Blessing in the end!) As my headache pounded away and my college daughter hung up on me (really? not again…another response on another day) I began to recollect the day. I am so loved, so blessed, so His. Doesn’t matter what satan tried to pull…Jesus & His word won out. Won. Yea baby! And this very post reminded me my eyes weren’t on the armor of God, weren’t on His love letters. My eyes and thoughts weren’t aligned to the truth. I thank you so much for being here for me (us) with this blog, my dear ole friend & sister in Christ. Keep the truth flowing because God knows the blog and YOU are being used for weary warriors like me…truth hurts yet His truth heals. Thank you. I love you dearly. In Christ…

    • I can sooo picture you having your little temper tantrum!! Sorry, but it put a big ol smile on my face!! Oh,how I miss you my sister!! The things we could sit and chat about these days. Thank you for being you and for taking the time to comment here!! And once again, I thank you for opening my eyes, when they were covered by a veil. Much love to you Patty and remember, you’re still making a difference!! You might not see the fruits right off, but just look what happened here!! Muah 🙂

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